you otay?

Alex and Mya are building mansions with legos while I savor every drop of coffee in my cup and every shriek that escapes their lips. They're beautiful children...I have done some things right in my life :)

I slept on the top bunk in their room the other night, just to hear them breathe...Alex coughed a little in his sleep and Mya sat straight up in bed, in a sleepy fog, and said, "Chayjay, you otay?" He said, "Yes, Mya. I'm okay," and my beautiful babies laid back down and fell back asleep.

We spent Christmas alone - huge blizzard prevented our plans - but all is right in the world. My children love Jesus, love each other, and love life.

oh, remorse.

Today I am mourning.

What have I done?